Being Addicted to Pain & How to Break Free

Addicted to pain? Sounds a bit extreme, ridiculous, perhaps even illogical. But then again, our minds are only sometimes logical and thankfully, many of us are fortunate enough to have filters so we do not have to disclose the inner workings of our thoughts, which if we are all honest, can be disturbing at times to say the least.

Let’s talk about self-sabotage. Let’s talk about all those times when you are yelling insults at someone you love and perhaps you know it is counter-productive, yet continue to do so anyway. Let’s talk about feeling hyper-vigilant and a constant need to be defensive- almost to the point of looking for an argument. Let’s talk about our consumption of the media that may bolster our views, but further intensifies our anger towards whole groups of people who may think differently.

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The list could certainly continue, but to put it simply, in many ways our society thrives on fear and justifying anger and pessimism. For many of us feeling stuck, disillusioned, or afraid, we seek to find ways that validate our experience. And thus, we will often find what we are looking for.

One of my all-time favorite reads is Eckhart Tolle’s, “A New Earth”. It is a must read that discusses our ego’s grasp on our consciousness and how we perceive ourselves and those around us. In this book he describes the phenomena of the “pain body” which he defines as, “the shadow aspect of our being”. Often working without our conscious awareness, the pain body needs to be “fed” in order to survive and it must also evade our conscious recognition of it.

Sometimes the pain body becomes so immense that we can identify almost the totality of who we are with its negative force. This is not uncommon when individuals have faced recurrent trauma, misfortune, grief, and/or loss. We can become consumed by negativity and seek out reasons that support our perpetual glass-half-empty perspective. It may feel foreign or even uncomfortable to seek enjoyment or embrace optimism. It may feel pointless as in the past, the other shoe has always dropped.

It can be hard to acknowledge the “pain body” and in many ways, it means confronting what may be at the foundation of our discontent, which can be in itself a difficult task. Additionally, it can be a challenge to transition from identifying as a victim to empowerment, which comes when we recognize our own ability to transform our perspective, thoughts, and consequently, feelings and experience. On some level this involves self-responsibility, which in many cases can feel unfair and may even evoke resistance as the “pain body” seeks to stay alive and justified.

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Of course, many of us will deny ever seeking out pain, yet when we start becoming aware of our thoughts, words, and actions, it may be a bit startling to recognize how much energy may be spent on maintaining negativity versus joy and positivity. The pain body can be elusive and unrelenting. Once taken over, it often wants more and we can become both the victim and the perpetrator again and again.

We can often feel stuck, overwhelmed, angry, and afraid. The pain body thrives on putting us against others, but also turning us against ourselves. It can make our self-esteem dismal and our self-talk perpetually critical and unforgiving. We want joy on one level, yet inevitably find ourselves drawn to the negative. We may be able to escape our pain body for lengths of time only to be quickly triggered by an event, interaction, or memory.

We can all get stuck in the patterns of the pain body from time to time. How can we break free of its grasp?

Awareness is always the first step to change. We all have countless thoughts passing through our minds every day. Most of us can choose to identify with those thoughts or not. The pain body survives only when we remain unconscious to its grasp and patterns. It loves to stay hidden and in the shadows. Once we can learn to observe and shine light on its force, we can begin to undo the pull it may have on our identity.

Try being a self-observer of your thoughts and feelings. Practice being the witness to your pain body…a watcher. Pain will happen, acknowledge it for what it is and be careful to let it not transform into something it is not. Resist identifying with it. Practice staying present as pain has the tendency to keep us stuck in the past or catapult our anxieties to the future. Question the evidence you may have for a particular thought and what evidence you may have against it. Be your own detective. Is a particular thought helpful to forward progress? Acknowledge the thought, but practice the art of saying, “not now”, or reframing the thought into something less harmful.

In the functional medicine world, our perceptions of how we view ourselves, those around us, and our environment is the foundation of foundations from which both emotional and physical wellness can thrive or be hastened. It can be so easy to find ourselves stuck in negativity, but I am going to do my best to count my blessings and take a few deep breaths. Namaste everybody.

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Wishing you contentment and vitality.

With gratitude,

Audry Van Houweling, PMHNP-BC, Owner & Founder, She Soars Psychiatry, LLC 

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WHY we must be asking more WHY’s in healthcare…the value of a root cause analysis

Been to the doctor lately? Likely you have had the typical patient experience- sat in the waiting room past the time of your scheduled appointment, then were ushered back to the exam room, sat probably a bit longer waiting for the provider to actually be ready to see you, and when the provider finally arrives, you rush through your concerns perhaps at the insistence of the provider who might be typing away making only brief eye contact, and then you are handed a prescription 5-10 minutes later, told to rest, drink lots of fluids, and maybe just maybe, to eat healthy and exercise.

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Sound familiar? Let me tell you, many of these providers have the very best intentions, but are pressured by multiple factors that may not be readily apparent as you are sitting in front of them trying to feel heard. Providers are pressured to be more and more productive as insurance reimbursements are insufficient and employers struggle to stay afloat. They are pressured to fill their schedule to the max. They feel pressured to have a solution for you, even if it is more of a band-aid. Many of them know the value of preventative medicine. Many of them wish they had more time to foster an actual relationship with you. And sadly, many providers are simply burnt out.

In part, it is why I chose to pursue functional medicine as it allowed me an opportunity to practice medicine in a way that honors the whole context in which symptoms were occurring- physiologically, psychologically, spiritually. It allows me time to develop relationships and time to discuss root causes and the foundations of wellness that are often missed in conventional medicine. Even while working in mental health where more time is allotted compared to primary care, I myself was labeled primarily as a prescriber and thus, clients came to expect a prescription at the end of the session when that may not be what is most appropriate.

With all the hustle and bustle, conventional medicine misses the opportunity to ask WHY when it comes to your concerns. In the business world asking WHY is important and more commonly known as a root cause analysis. A root cause analysis essentially demands asking WHY about the WHY about the WHY. The “5-WHY” model is a commonly used strategy.

Here’s an example with a car that won’t start:

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Can you imagine if this were done in medicine? Let’s just use the hypothetical example of anxiety- something that is typically addressed by prescribing an anxiolytic medications in the conventional setting. 

  • Anxiety (WHY)
    • WHY #1: Patient states they feel overwhelmed.
      • WHY #2: Patient states they worry about finances and their marriage.
        • WHY #3: Patient states they have been arguing a lot with their spouse and working harder than they should, but still living paycheck to paycheck.
          • WHY #4: Patient states they have a tense relationship with their boss. It is difficult to ask for a raise. A lot of their work-related stress is projected on their spouse.
            • WHY #5: Patient states their boss is intimidating. Patient states they feel taken advantage of.

While medication may mask or numb symptoms from the anxiety, given this example, might it be more sustainable to instead work on empowering the patient to confront their boss or perhaps it is time to look for a new job? Many times, patients know what might be driving their stress, but giving themselves permission to act is another ballgame.

Ready for another example? Let’s take on Type II diabetes- one of our most troubling epidemic.

Here we go:

  • Type II Diabetes (WHY)
    • WHY #1: HbgA1C 7.2, fasting blood sugar 200
      • WHY #2: Patient is classified as obese.
        • WHY #3: Patient feels overwhelmed with trying to exercise and eat healthy.
          • WHY #4: Patient is on food stamps and struggles to afford healthy foods. Patient cannot afford a gym membership and lives in an unsafe neighborhood- so they are uncomfortable exercising outside. Patient is also prescribed medication that increases weight gain.
            • WHY #5: Patient has been on disability for schizophrenia since age 20. Patient has been unable to work, has little support, and has poor self-esteem.

 

There you have it. It goes back to social reforms, social justice, and addressing the pre-determinants of health & wellness (safety, shelter, food, environment, social connection). Clearly, we cannot expect providers to solve these problems in the course of a 10 minute appointment, but we must try harder to encourage upstream rather than downstream models of healthcare. Providers must also be emboldened to pause, take a step back, reevaluate, and acknowledge the WHY’s with their patients and also with themselves! And remember, providers are not saviors…so if you can do a little root analysis on yourself- you might be surprised what you come up with!

With gratitude,

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Heal the gut to heal the mind…

They say your gut is your second brain. We all get “gut feelings” or “butterflies in our tummy”. It is not a surprise that there is often a synchronicity between our feelings and our insides.

For a good introduction of how your gut and brain are connected, watch the below TED talk

Pretty interesting stuff, right?

At She Soars Psychiatry, your gut function is a major focus of restoring your emotional wellness. Your gut and brain are in constant communication with one another.

Depression, anxiety, poor focus, mood instability, autism, and fatigue have all been previously linked to a higher susceptibility to gastrointestinal disorders such as irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), food allergies, ulcerative colitis, and inflammatory bowel diseases.

Your gastrointestinal track houses the enteric nervous system (ENS)- made up of over 100 million nerves in your gut that release neurotransmitters, hormones, and intersect with your immune function. And by the way, your gut plays the starring role in your immune system as it is the primary site where your immune system meets invading organisms. 80% of the immune cells reside in your gut!

Supporting both your gastrointestinal health and emotional wellness is your gut’s microbiome. Your microbiome is essentially the makeup of bacteria in your gut- of which we all have trillions! Did you know your microbiome is estimated to weigh 3lbs? And, we have far more bacteria compared to the cells that our actually our own!

Certain bacteria is known to be more beneficial such as Lactobacilli and Bifidobacterium strains. Other bacteria such as C.difficile, H. Pylori, and E.coli can be more harmful. When there is an imbalance between harmful vs helpful bacteria or a lack of bacterial diversity, dysbiosis can occur. Dysbiosis can also be triggered by stress, environmental toxicity, nutrition, medications, and illness among other factors.

While mechanisms behind how exactly the microbiome supports emotional wellness are not entirely clear, it is clear that they are intimately connected be it through the vagus nerve, hormones, and/or immune responses. Your gut is also a major producer of neurotransmitters. Bifidobacterium strains for example help produce tryptophan- a precursor to serotonin. Did you know that your gut produces between 90-95% of your body’s serotonin? Certainly, if this went awry, depression and anxiety could be possible consequences.

A remarkable study demonstrated that when a fecal transplant of a depressed mouse was given to an “undepressed” mouse, the “undepressed” mouse began exhibiting depressive symptoms including lack of interest and anxiety suggesting a direct connection between your gut’s microbiome and your mood.

Your gut’s microbiome is always fluctuating and is never stagnate. You are born with a sterile gut. Babies born vaginally are exposed to their mother’s microbiota in the birth canal, which is also transferred via breast feeding. It has been shown that individuals born caesarean or who were not breast fed may be more susceptible to dysbiosis, obesity, and immune deficiencies. Much of what we do, eat, and are exposed to can either be helpful or harmful to our gut’s microbiome.

Practical ways to support your gut’s microbiome & emotional wellness:

  1. Minimize refined sugars & processed foods– Sugar is quickly absorbed in the small intestine and can leave the bacteria feeling deprived so that they then start consuming the cells that line your gut, which can lead to intestinal permeability of leaky gut syndrome.
  2. Eat a lot of colorful plants- especially organic vegetables and low glycemic (low sugar) fruits. Plants can supply the gut with helpful bacteria and also act as prebiotics, which are food to the healthy bacteria. Try getting most of your carbohydrates from plants.
  3. Enjoy fermented foods that include an array of helpful bacteria such as kefir, sauerkraut, unprocessed yogurt, and kimchi.
  4. Consider an elimination diet. At least try avoiding grains and dairy for 2-4 weeks. You might notice significant improvements! Corn, soy, eggs, and legumes can also be problematic for some folks. Taking a food first approach to restoring emotional wellness is one of the least invasive, most sustainable, and most affordable strategies!
  5. Consider taking a probiotic (a good one that is). Taking a high-quality probiotic can help repopulate your gut with healthy bacteria. Probiotics can help improve your digestion, mood, immune function, and energy levels.
  6. Try avoiding antibiotics when possible. Certainly, antibiotics have their place, but excess use can cause havoc for the microbiome as healthy bacteria may be compromised and diversity of bacteria lessened.
  7. Support your digestion! Make sure to drink lots of water and consume fibrous foods. Antacids or proton-pump-inhibitors (PPIs) can deplete stomach acid, which is an important part of supporting your microbiome. Digestive enzymes and glutamine- the primary amino acid support your gut lining can also be helpful.
  8. Practice mindfulness, gratitude, & meditation. Chronic stress can perpetuate chronic inflammation and the release of inflammatory cytokines in the gut. Getting a handle on our stress can help slow the inflammatory cascade and allow our gut to heal.

Restoring emotional wellness & gut function go hand in hand. We look forward to helping you navigate this journey at She Soars Psychiatry.

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May you be well!

With gratitude,

Audry Van Houweling, Owner & Founder, She Soars Psychiatry, LLC